Darkness

The Darkness is where i dwell
in its thickness is where i thrive
for in the darkness i truly feel alive
it comforts me
it gives me peace
for in the darkness
i stand and face my fear
it eats away the heartache
and it drinks up all the tears
it is where i need to be
so look into the blackness
that is where you will find me

Wanted

A dominant man , a strong man, a man who is confident in who he is, and what he wants out of his life. A man who is in control of his own life, and knows exactly what he wants for himself, and from his submissive. A man that is independent, has goals and dreams and follows them. A man who stands up for His beliefs. A man that is an individual and leader. A man that is understanding, caring, and loving. A man that cherishes his submissive and the gift she chooses to give to him. A man that is intelligent, He teaches, and trains with understanding and patience. A man that is strong yet tender, one that can test his submissives limits with thoughtfulness and caring. A Man that can gentley tear her down to build her up to be all she can be. A Master that can discipline and punish firmly but lovingly. He will Never punish in anger. He is her teacher and trainer; anger has no place when he disciplines. Punishment doesn't
have to be physical it can be psychological. He does not do it to be harsh or to hurt her, but out of love, devotion and forgiveness.

I Long for Him to Know....

I long to kneel before Him
I long for Him to gaze down upon me
Hungry for what he sees hungry for what
I offer him
I long for him to consume me to make me his
mind, body, and soul
I long to be his alone, to serve him, to please him
I long for him to know every breath I take is his
that my heart beats because his heart beats
I long for him to know that each desire I have is his
because he alows me to desire him
I long for him to know that every thought I have that every
dream I dream are thoughts and dreams of Him
I long for him to know threw my actions that He is my Master
I long for him to know that I serve him out of want and need
I long for him to know that without him I am truly lost and incomplete.

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more ramblings

I sit here staring at the blank screen, trying to figure out how to get the words out of my head, and on to the screen. Why is it that as human beings when we get what we want or come close to getting what we want we push it away, either intentsionaly or unintentsionaly. I met a wonderful man that I think could've been a great Master for me, I ended up getting very sick being hospitalized, I was unable to go online and write him telling him what happened, I fear I have lost my chance with him. I wrote him as soon as I was able explaining everything, in doing so I asked that if he wanted me, to write and let me know, if not don't bother, I would wait a week to hear from him before I looked for another Master. It has been 2 days and it is driving me nuts. I am thinking if he did not write by now then he is not going too. This saddens me If feel as if I have missed out. I came so close, almost close enough to touch it. Because I allowed my self to get sick I lost my chance, just like that gone! poof! I think because of this I am giving myself a break and will no longer be seeking, at least for a while anyway.
pet

Listen

....one must listen close to the words spoken or read what is written...the importance of that concept

The definition of Listen is, Take notice of and act on what someone says. The importance of this is so that you do not miss anything that is said, so that you may carry threw with any instructions that may have been given. Also in listening you do not misunderstand what is said. It is also important to not read more into what was said. You should not make sugestions upon what you think you heard, or read, it may be inaproprate to do so. Sometimes simple instruction is just that simple instruction.

Hopeless

Today i think i give up hope. Once again i have had my hopes up that there was something in this lifestyle for me. That finally it had come, that i could be my true self, that i was once again whole. I had something to look forward to. But Low and Behold.....I get told that although i am this awsome submissive who has a lot to offer am not compatible to their needs. Aren't you suppose to help your submissive learn to be compatible to your needs? So as of today I am done looking for a Dom or Domme or Master or any thing of the like. It is just not there for me. So i will sit on the sidelines, offer help when I can and share my experiences with others. That is about all I can do. I refuse to hope again just to be" let down gently" I am tired of having my heart played with either intentionaly or unintentionaly.
no ones little pet

A Love Letter

My Sweet and Wonderful Master,

I can not begin to tell you what you mean to me. You have given of yourself as much as you have taken from me. I know in your wonderful and complex mind you are wondering "What have I taken from you? I have given you every thing."
And I reply to you Dear Sweet Master, that you have taken away my ability to self destruct, you have taken away my self doubt, You have taken away my insecurities and have allowed me the room to grow within myself. You have taken away my self pity and turned me into a secure productive person. You have taken away my ability to become a doormat and replaced it with Confidence and self reliance. In return my Sweet Master, I give you respect,loyalty,and honor and most of all I give you my love and devotion, and my gift of submission. This you have earned with your stern ways, your kind heart and your wisdom. Thank You for choosing to share your world with me.
with humble love and devotion,

your pet