A Dom whom is working with me had me write a response to one of his articles
Sir,
The article that you had me read, brought back some old familer feelings. What you call helplessness i do not see it that way I call it willingness. Let me explain, as someone whom was a very willing slave, when my Master took me to be his slave i felt very free. I was finally free to be the person i was truly meant to be. I was very willing to let Him shape me and form me to be what he wanted and needed me to be, And in doing so, in letting go and trusting him, I was more able to let go of old vices and behaviors that had led me down a very destructive path. The more i was willing to let go of, the more he gave me. I went from being a self destructive door mat, to a very strong and confident woman. In my willingness to let him make me feel helpless, to him and him alone, allowed me the voice and confidence to tell others in my life no.
In totally opening up and trusting in him, allowing him to see me in all my nakedness from my skin to my soul, i learned how to love and be loved unconditionally. When i was serving or being of service to my Master, I was confident that i was flawless. One way to let you see what i am talking about is by adding this poem i wrote,
I long for Him to know....
I long to kneel before Him
I long for Him to gaze down upon me
Hungry for what he sees
Hungry for what
I offer him
I long for him to consume me to make me his
mind, body, and soul
I long to be his alone, to serve him,
to please him
I long for him to know every breath I take is his
that my heart beats because his heart beats
I long for him to know that each desire I have is his
because he alows me to desire him
I long for him to know that every thought I have that every
dream I dream are thoughts and dreams of Him
I long for him to know threw my actions that He is my Master
I long for him to know that I serve him out of want and need
I long for him to know that without him I am truly lost and incomplete.
