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Monday, July 4, 2011

more ramblings

I sit here staring at the blank screen, trying to figure out how to get the words out of my head, and on to the screen. Why is it that as human beings when we get what we want or come close to getting what we want we push it away, either intentsionaly or unintentsionaly. I met a wonderful man that I think could've been a great Master for me, I ended up getting very sick being hospitalized, I was unable to go online and write him telling him what happened, I fear I have lost my chance with him. I wrote him as soon as I was able explaining everything, in doing so I asked that if he wanted me, to write and let me know, if not don't bother, I would wait a week to hear from him before I looked for another Master. It has been 2 days and it is driving me nuts. I am thinking if he did not write by now then he is not going too. This saddens me If feel as if I have missed out. I came so close, almost close enough to touch it. Because I allowed my self to get sick I lost my chance, just like that gone! poof! I think because of this I am giving myself a break and will no longer be seeking, at least for a while anyway.
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